Wednesday, November 14, 2007

The Pretender

I talked to an amazing friend tonight, and he called me OUT on the fact that I was "pretending" to be happy about something I did. While he didn't make me feel ashamed, he made me admit a lot of things to myself. FUCK I hate it when that happens.

It wasn't full of some history lesson, or sports stats, it was just a conversation. It's really too bad I'm not attracted to this person. I really need someone like that in my life. He called me "the pretender," and I started singing that old Jackson Browne song. He asked me why I don't sing anymore. My only answer to him was "work."

How fucking sad is that? I don't wanna be a rock star, but my friend really got me thinking. Yes, I have stability with my job, but why DON'T I sing anymore? Why are my guitars collecting dust, and why the fuck do I own a bass when I don't even know how to play it???

My old band is breaking up. I'm going to see them Friday night, close to here. Talk about an end to an era!!! Even if they don't call me up to sing again, I'm looking forward to seeing anyone/everyone who was there from the beginning.

Anyway, Jackson Browne has always been one of my favorite artists, and ever since this tune came out, I've always wanted to do my own version of it.

Well, with breasts and as a blonde, of course. ha ha



Alkelda the Gleeful said...

I hope you sing again soon! Sometimes, it's hard to pick up the guitar even when you want to. I hope you do it anyway.

Lady K said...

alkelda ~ YOU SWEETIE! "And the Grinch's heart grew..." XOXOXO

You seem to come about at just the right time...

Callie said...

I'm jealous. If I could sing, I don't think anyone would be able to shut me up. Sadly, I sound like a kennel of dogs on a full moon.

Just do what feels right for you. You'll be much happier.


captain corky said...

I would love to hear you sing sometime. I bet you're amazing. ;)

Big Pissy said...

I'd love to hear you sing too!

Please?!?!? :)

Junebugg said...

If nothing else you could hit an open mike night somewhere. Hell we even have them down here in the boonies of Alabama. I bet if you gave it a try you'd blow the crowd away

Bostick said...

I like Jackson Browne as a person but his music kind of gets on my nerves. Are you and that guy going to do it?

TheBirdman33 said...

Start a new band!!

Since I am not up to date in the blog world, I now know you DID sing and you had a BLAST! Plus you have to teach me how to play guitar so I can play Counting Crows songs.